So it's 10:15 PM and I've been working since 6 am. I know it sounds ridiculous, but being unemployed and trying to scrounge around to make ends meet is really hard work. I feel like I have LESS time than I did when I was working full-time. How weird is that?
I'm up early, checking emails at the crack of dawn, and then I drop my daughter at school. That time is sacrosanct. It is the only time I really connect with her, not always successfully since she is not a morning person. But we download as much as we can before she is off doing her thing. Then I pray. It takes about an hour and I try hard to force myself into a state of concentration. Connecting with G-d for strength and support has become a real necessity for me. Without that spark of inspiration and reminder that He is going to provide for me, I feel lost all day. Prayer and exercise have so much in common that way for me.
And then it's back to work. In front of the computer. All day. Job-hunting. Writing. Editing. More writing. Not fun writing like this. Business letter writing. Resume revising. Networking. And eating. I try not to drift down too often to the kitchen. But my body is used to small meals every couple of hours. Only when I'm parked in front of the computer, my mind knows I'm not burning those calories the way I would be if I kickboxed.
So it's discipline to not eat the tortilla chips in the kitchen (THEY'RE whole wheat and flax - CHILL!), the ice cream in the freezer (its SUGAR-FREE and LOW-FAT!!!), or the Kashi bars in the cupboard (they are low-glycemic load- read the label if you don't believe me). Do I succomb? You bet I do. But comes noontime, I take a 30 minute - 6 mile walk. I know I may not get to kickboxing today - I had to work through my usual evening kickboxing time. But at least I got my blood moving a bit. And burned off some of those high-fiber, low glycemic, whole grain, well...you get the picture...
Got jobs? Judy
